Defining a Life Struggle

cropped-8584544245_dd0144e7ce_b.jpganx-i-e-ty /aNGziede/ : a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome.

The above definition is how Google interprets anxiety. Anxiety, like many other personal issues, is often seen as nothing more than a word and definition to those who do not struggle with it. However, for many, anxiety is more than a word. To those who struggle, it is much more than the mere feeling of nervousness. It is a daily battle between one’s own angels and demons. It is walking down a school hallway and feeling the walls become tighter and tighter, crushing your lungs as a mass of people swarms your being. It is being in a crowded room, yet feeling completely alone and drowning in the presence of so many bodies. It is being afraid of making friends, out of fear that they will leave you to suffer in your pain. It is keeping that one song on repeat hoping that it will somehow change your life, or at least make you forget about life for a few unmeasurable moments. It is taking an inhaler 10 times in a minute, even though you know dang well you don’t have asthma. It is seeing an attractive girl, yet refusing to talk to her because of that one time a girl rejected you. It is staring at a blank piece of paper in class as you listen to the clicking of the clock, too worried and stressed to even begin the assignment. That is the definition of anxiety.

However, it does not always have to be that way. Eventually, anxiety does indeed become just a word and definition. It no longer lurks behind a teenager, whispering into his ear and holding him captive by his secular soul. No; it is no longer the shadow following him everywhere he goes. It is no longer the dark mass of sin and worry compiled in his mind. It is now just a word and definition.

“Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” – Matthew 6:34

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